What is so hard about Change

Last night I was talking to Nick, Max and Qin Laoshi over dinner. I think I have had a much skewed outlook on my life...Max said something profound to me. He said that when we are back home we can come out of ourselves and we can explore that which is around us, but when we come here it is much harder to do, so for safety we turn inward...for me I was scared at what I found...he said that for him after a while he was able to turn back out and see with a new perceptive. Once he chose to turn back inward he said he turned, this time, to his heart and to the universe inside him...I think that this is why I am here....Why out of all the spaces in the world I could occupy, I am here. So much of what I think of myself and about the world is false and even dangerous...Change is perhaps the hardest thing I will have to do while I am here. Or maybe changing isn't the most difficult part, but maintaining that feeling once I find it. To promote it, to accept that some wont like it. To keep faith in myself and in truth...or the the hardest part may just be overcoming the fear that has festered and spread throughout me for so long.